I’ve always been self conscious about my appearance. Most often than not, if I look good, I feel great. If I look like crap, I’m probably having a pretty shitty day too. Haha!
Photo was taken in Nov 2013. Around 7 months after I had my 2nd child, Asher. I was 100 lbs.
Gone were the days that I binge one day… then I drop the weight (plus more) as soon as I starve myself for a day. Yes, it used to be THAT easy.
Photo was taken Dec 2017. One year and 10 months after I had my 3rd child, Alana. 108-110 lbs. Note: Swimsuit was purchased the same day, oversized. Not an excuse!
And now THIS. F*******CK! I never realized how big I was until I transferred this photo to my laptop. I feel like, what I was seeing in the mirror was NOT the same person in this photo. My eyes and mind was messing with me. My non existent waistline plus so much roundness everywhere… photos don’t lie. OMG.
First order of business as soon as I got back from our holiday festivities was to dye my hair black to make me seem slimmer. It’s all an illusion. Haha!
First day in Lagree. Lagree is a 45 min workout. It’s like pilates and barre on steriods!
One of my New Year’s Resolutions is to focus on my health, including weight. Seriously, health is wealth. And my weight determines how I feel because it signifies how much or how little I’ve been taking care of myself and body.
I did a poll to see whether women believed their husbands when they say, “They love you no matter what you look like!”. Close fight!
And for fun, I asked my husband, if he thought I was fat. AND if he would love me no matter what I looked like. Of course he said, YES. I’m sure most significant others will. Haha! But hello, I have eyes and a brain… if I don’t like what I see in the mirror or feel about myself… do I expect anyone else to? Honestly, the way I see myself is going to reflect in everything that I do. At the day, it’s not about how anyone views you, it’s about how you view yourself. Always rememeber: You can’t give what you don’t have!!!
Judgement day. This is my first weigh in last January 5, 2018. Puñyeta!!!!
I knew I had weight issues. I just didn’t know the extent. And that’s why I consulted with the Aivee Institute.
I did the InBody assessment, got the low down and compostion of my weight.
January 5, 2018, 49.3kg is 108.46 lbs. And that’s not the worst part… check out muscle and fat ratio. I have MUCH more fat than muscle. Even my “water weight” is low. Conclusion is I’m composed of FAT.
Since that day, I decided to workout 2-3 times a week. Lagree + 30 min cardio (at least 3-5k on the elliptical). Plus I was super watching everything that I ate.
A sample menu:
Breakfast: 2 tiny slices of smoked salmon
Lunch: Hainanese chicken breast, cucumber and hoisin sauce.
Dinner: Hainanese Soup, boiled chicken breast, cucumber and hoisin sauce.
Note: NO CARBS
You’d think that workout + diet is an instant recipe for weightloss right? WRONG. Craaaap, the scale doesn’t lie. In 20 days of exercising and dieting, I didn’t lose anything. I went from 108.46 lbs with clothes to 108 lbs without clothes on our scale at home. The .46lbs must have been the clothes. Haha!
In body test January 5, 2018 vs January 25, 2018 shows a LITTLE improvement. A slight decrease of fat and increase of muscle. BUT with the amount of work I was putting in the past 20 days, I was NOT getting results.
I know my body. My metabolism is not as fast as it use to be. I could no longer do my “military diet” and expect to shed 5-10lbs in a few days…week. Those In Body results is 20 days of hard work, for 1 lb. You gotta be kidding me??? Crap.
Note: There have been alot of people telling me that I should be happy coz they don’t think I need to lose any weight. THANK YOU. I appreciate your kind words and well wishes BUT no matter how much people tell me I look fine. No matter how much my husband tells me he loves me and that I look amazing. It’s not about what anyone else thinks and says about me… it’s my constant stuggle and battle with MYSELF.✌🏻
If you’re following my IG stories, notice that I’m wearing almost the same thing everyday. I’m hiding in gym clothes!
And yes, the way I dress is the way I feel. Sluggish, lethargic and sloppy. My confidence level is at an all time low coz I can’t wear my OOTD’s since I don’t fit in my clothes. If you don’t believe me…. look at this:
Compare how my silhoutte looks with and without clothes.
If there’s one thing I know I’m good at, it’s dressing well. I know what to wear and how to hide my imperfections. Well….
This is as REAL as it gets. No liquify, no photoshop, #NoFilter.
I can only go so far to “masking” myself in nicely styled clothes and hiding behind a hoodie for so long. Judge me, shame me or compliment me… I DON’T CARE. I’m putting these photos out here for the world to see because EVERYONE has insecurities and NO ONE IS PERFECT.
Clothes can conceal your flaws but can never mask how you really feel. I really believe in the saying, “If you look good, you feel good too!”.
No matter what people say, “You’re too thin.”, “You’re too fat.” or even “You look great just the way you are!”. Whether it’s 10lbs you need to gain or 100lbs you need to lose… it doesn’t matter. The way you view yourself, is the way you feel and it will affect you no matter what. And truth be told, THAT reflection of yourself is going to affect how you see… view and deal with the people around you. The struggle is REAL!
Discussing my weightloss program with The Aivee Institute’s Nutritionist, Ach Gonzales.
I’m not one to play the victim card OR feel sorry for myself. OMG.. shoot me. No way. With everything in my life, I face my issues and problems head on… I acknowledge my problem… no fear, the hell with pride. I will ASK FOR HELP and I’m prepared to do the work.
Challenge accepted. I will do whatever it takes to make me feel better about myself!
What is H2 Injection & Aivee Diet (Dr.Food)? H2 is the 2nd generation modifed HCG. HCG or Human Chronic Gonadotripin is the hormone in pregnant women which is created by the body to nourish and protect the fetus by taking the stores fat reserves and changing it to nutrition for the placenta. It basically drains the fat cells and transforms it to positive energy.
The Aivee Diet now known as Dr.Food is chef-curated calorie portioned meals. The dishes are highly individualized and approved by The Aivee Clinic nutritionist.
Do I need to do both for it to work? YES. You need the H2 injections for consistent weightloss throughout the program. You need the Aivee Diet aka Dr.Food because low calories are key to dropping the lbs. But you’ll need the H2 injections to survive the hunger pangs since it suppresses your appetite!
Photo was taken on March 25, 2011. I was 95lbs and a little underweight for my height.
First thing’s first: GOALS. I want to be close to my wedding size and weight. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be underweight or look malnourished. My goal is to be the bare minimim and have the “normal” weight for my height which is 44 kg or 97.9lbs. That means I need to lose 9.69 lbs. F*ck it, let’s round it off. THE GOAL is to LOSE 10lbs.
The Plan: Lose the weight then hit the gym to be toned. To me, I’m scared to convert the existing fat into muscle and bulk up. I want to look lean especially since I’m so tiny… petite.
Note: H2 + Aivee Diet is my way of “jumpstarting” my weight loss with the intention of living a healthier lifestyle and balanced diet.
The Aivee Clinic pamphlet of H2 Injection & Aivee Diet (Dr.Food)
My Weightloss Program/Diet Plan:
My H2 + Aivee Diet Program (Note: 500 cal is the usual recommended diet BUT I plan to workout… a little)
So guys, I’m taking you along with me through this journey. I’m documenting this journey, posting everything on my IG stories, daily. And I will be updating this post, regularly.
This way, I’m pressured to follow the program AND if it works (which I’m confident it will), we have a baseline reference that we can always go back to.
Note: Everyone reacts differently so don’t take everything I say and do as gospel truth.
Cheat sheet to learning how to inject yourself. TIP: Pinch hard. Ok, so here we go. Let’s bring sexy baaack!
PHASE I is GORGING or LOADING UP “Eat whatever you want and as much as you can” was Ach Gonzalez’s instructions.
According to The Aivee Clinic, Phase 1 consists of building up your fat reserves for days 1 and 2 while beginning the administration of H2. The reason for phase 1 is to get the H2 circulating in the body before the regimen begins. After two days, the brain will have had ample time to know that the release of fat is to start. Adding fat reserves during this period is crucial by signaling the HCG of what process needs to be addressed.
Start Date: January 25, 2017
BOOYAH!!!! I ate ate and ATE. Haha!
DAY 2 First time to inject myself. My pinch hurt more than the actual injection. Haha!
It was Asher’s field day in school so I was limited to eating whatever they had.
Well.. I actually ate this plus a taco, 2 munchkin donuts and pizza. Plus breadpan in the car. Dinner I had Hosseins: Beef and chicken kebab with Biryani + chicken hummus with roti and a sweet lassi.
F*****ck. I’m 3 lbs heavier than my last weigh in. Hahaha! I “loaded up” alright.
PHASE II: Low Calorie Diet As per The Aivee Clinic, the Aivee Diet is followed for the next 20-40 days whilst taking H2 injections daily. As you enter into phase 2 of the program, an average weight loss of 1-2 pounds per day will be seen.
Day 3 Ok, so I’m suppose to be on a 800 calorie Dr.Food Diet BUT I’m going to Bohol.
I packed my H2 injections with ice to make sure it stays cool.
Here’s what I ate:
Lunch: Sinigang na Hipon (4pcs)
Dinner: Shrimp, fish, salad and freakin dessert. Halo-Halo leche flan with condensed milk. Craaaap! Buffet.
Note: Late afternoon, I was pretty hungry aleady.
Day 4 Still in Bohol and woke up slightly hungry. I felt a little better after my H2 injection.
Breakfast: Fried bangus, no fat or skin. I ate the zucchini and salad. Took a bite from of the egg.
Lunch: Sinigang na Shrimp (4pcs)
Dinner: Relyenong Bangus and a bite of chicken curry.
Cheated with a little chocolate.
Day 5: Start of the Aivee Diet or 800 calories of Dr. Food
Good morning! I start my day in front of the mirror. I feel the effects, I just want to see it with my own eyes. Are you seeing my waist already? hahaha! First order of business, H2 injection.
It’s only Day 5 and my waist looks significantly smaller. Don’t you think???
Today is a milestone because it’s the first day of my Dr. Food 800 calorie diet. Check it out:
The meals were prepared a packed the day before. You have the option to have it delivered straight to your home OR if you’re “kuripot” like me, I just have our driver pick it up. haha!
Today was a pretty hectic day and I survived a lunch onboarding session with my Dr. Food lunch. YAY!!!
So this is what 800 calories in a day looks like. It’s actually quite filling. FYI.
Progress. I’m so happy with what I’m seeing!!!
I loved my meals today. No temptation. No cheating!
I can’t believe I’m seeing the result so fast. I’m feeling like ME again. YAY!!!
Ok, today is going to be a struggle. I’m out for event the whole day so the temptation is going to be insane!!!
First event of the day. Onboarding lunch with my fellow Pampers Mommies!
I was so good and just ate my salad. ALL OF IT!
With no time to spare, I rushed to The Aivee Water launch of my favorite power couple and lifetime peg, Dr.Z and Dr. Aivee. And YEEEES, I owe my body and skin to her! hahaha!
I’ll be talking about about this pretty amazing Aivee Water technology, SOON!
I didn’t eat a single thing!!! WOOT WOOT.
Straight to another meeting with 30 minutes to spare. OMG!!! Long Day.
I went home to eat my dinner before meeting up with our friends for another dinner. Waaaaaah!
And this is where sh*t hit the fan. I cheated!!!!!! Puñyeta!!!
So I caved for a tiny piece of steak, a little pasta and a bite size Twix bar. Craaaaaaap!!!
Today I was extremely good and followed the meal plan completely. No cheating!
I must admit, it was pretty hard considering we did a joint birthday celebration for our kiddos in their Toddler House school.
I’m so proud of myself for resisting temptation. Haha! I love kiddie birthday food + cupcakes from Sonjas. Accck!
The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. Look at Alana, she loves it too. Haha! I’m living vicariously through you, my love.
Day 9: First day to workout
For me, there was not point to workout at my heabiest because I would just add to the weight by building muscle on fat. Note: I’ve been waiting for this day!!! :)
It’s time to workout!!! I told myself and adviced The A Institute that I wanted to start working out as soon as I was close to my idea weight.
I guess the big question is: Is it safe to workout om 800 calories? The answer is YES. I felt lighter than ever!!!
Originally I was suppose to be on 500 calories per day diet. But since I’m super active plus intended to workout, the nitritionist Ach for The A Insititute bumped it up to 800 calories per day.
I’m actually still pretty amazed by what 800 calories looks like. Haha!
Day 10: OMG
Today’g going to be crazy. Back to back events PLUS I started off late because Alana decided to use my make up and accidentally stained my white pants. Haha!
Unfortunately, I didn’t have time for a proper breakfast… or lunch.
OMG. Did you know that an apple is already 80 calories?? Waaaah!
I was having so much fun at the Nankid Parentology+ event that I forgot to eat.
As soon as I got home, I busted out my Dr.Food and ate quickly since we had a dinner party to go to.
Ok so this is breakfast and lunch. I didn’t finish it but I nibbled from both. I loved the scallops by the way!!!
Dinner + “drinks” with friends was so much fun.
But F****, I couldn’t help it. I cheated!!!!
I took another trip to Trinoma for the Nankid Parentology+ event. And I have to say, I was pretty damn good. I followed my diet down to a T.
I woke up feeling so good. Plus I loved the body I was seeing in the mirror.
Today was a pretty hectic day. And tough!!!
I had a lunch date in Mamou with some old friends. Hahaha! Of all places to go to when I’m on a strict diet…
Look at this??? Not bad right?! Luckily, my waiter friends at Mamou was nice enough to heat ans plate my food for me.
But sh*t I couldn’t help it. I caved with an oyster!!! Hahaha!
But was pretty good for dinner. I actually only ate half of this serving. Yay!
Today was a pretty intense. I was running around like a headless chicken. Luckily, I was able to squeeze in time to eat all my Dr.Food meals.
Look at today’s Dr. Food meal. Delish!
Another good day, no cheating. Haha!
Day 14: Milestone at 100lbs
Woot Woot!!! I woke up feeling lighter than usual.
When I hopped on that scale, I was over the moon.
Here’s a closer look. I can’t believe that I lost 10lbs in only 14 days. OMG. Happy dance!!!
Breakfast for some reason taste exceptionally good. I loved how that tofu was cooked.
To celebrate my latest achievement, first thing’s first: LAGREE.
This was all part of my masterplan. I told myself that I wouldn’t go full on with the workouts until I’ve reached my “Goal Weight”. Why? Because I don’t want to waste my time turning fat into muscle and bulk up. I don’t want to be “masculado”. Yikes! It’s not for me.
My techinique: Once you reach your goal weight, WORKOUT. It’s the perfect way to get that toned and lean look.
Today was a super long work day. Even if I was going to a lunch meeting, I was prepared to eat my Dr.Food meal.
Sadly, the restaurant we were meeting in refused to heat my food or allow me to eat it in their restaurant. Haha!
Don’t worry. I was SUPER controlled. I just had a few bites. Haha!
Went straight to another meeting. And was actually pretty hungry when I got home.
Dinner was super light. So no guilt! Haha!
My day started so early that I didn’t even have time to take a video of my injections nor eat breakfast.
It’s Alana’s actual birthday and Toddler House Valentines celebration.
The minute I go home, I checked the menu and decided to heat both breakfast and lunch. It was already 12:30pm and I was running on empty!
OMG. Gluttony!! Haha! And no I didn’t everything. I was just so hunrgy that I wanted to puyt everything on my plate.
Today was another back to back. I had to brave the traffic to Vertis North in Quezon City for an interior design store called Global Views.
And I must say, I loved dinner and discovered that these noodlde looking things was a mushroon and not pasta. Haha!
I started my day right by having alot of water and Lagree for Breakfast. Haha!
***** TO BE CONTINUED******
- Cat Arambulo-Antonio